When I was a small child I loved when our school would bring in Magicians to amaze and astound us! Oh how to be able to pull a rabbit out of a hat! Or make things disappear.
As I grew and realized a lot of the magic I dreamed of as a small child was not magic at all. It was just a trick. Now that is not to say that there is not magical moments in my life! This past 12 months of recreating my life and the magic all around me has been a true journey. So much change. a year ago I was living on the road and living on Mini Butterfinger Candy Bar’s and Mc Donalds coffee! I was tired all the time! I was traveling about 150 miles a day running myself ragged.
As I look at where I am today, honestly I am still recovering from 2017. The key word is recovery. The Magic I have in my life is from being able to hold my husband’s hand at the end of the day. Drive to work in the morning knowing the road back is 25 miles. Now that is comfort. To shop with my 16-year-old for dresses for her Spring Concert! This is magic! To see her face light up over being able to get all three dresses! Magic!
What I have learned is that you must have balance! Balance is the key to having a good life for half the pain! Money cannot make my family happy. It cannot give me back lost time with my children nor my husband.
In the past year the financial loss has been over whelming. I went from making three figure to a two figure income. Result is living the good life for half. I am here to tell you it has not been easy. Nice meals in restaurants gone! Wine membership gone! New car traded off for older car! Sold off things to make ends meet! Started a small batch granola company really not easy! Watched family members look at me like I lost my mind! Why Granola? Answer God! All I know is that it made sense and as we grow I trust God!
Faith & grace of God is always present. I am so thankful for his love and never-ending love! The Magic of life is the joy we get when we allow to let God be all the magic we need!
Three things I am doing now for balance
1. Bible & prayer time! I allow this to be removed due to time constraints. I am scheduling into my day. Afternoon time as I go home listening to Christian Radio
2. Health changes cutting a lot of processed food out and eating a better natural diet
3. Taking back my home from my daughter’s family! I love my children but our middle daughters family had to be asked to go! They have been here for three years. I want the balance of coming into my home and feeling like I live here and that this is my refuge. It was a tough decision because I love having our grandson right here. Our faith and our morals do not match with a young couple and middle-aged parents who see the world completely different. It has caused huge bouts of stress for all of us.
What is important to you will not always be important to others. But being thankful to change is the only way I got thru the past 12 months. My faith in God to give me a new perspective paved the path to a better life. I gave up and gained so much back not in income but in life. The income will get rebuilt. I am thankful for what we do have.
Some of the toughest times in my life have come out of my own poor decisions. I am a sinner trying to be more like Jesus in how he lived is not always easy! I loose my way. We naturally look back and remember hurt moments in our lives. We even become bitter over things. I have got to admit I know all about bitterness.
I try hard not to think of these moments where those whom we love the most have hurt us. It is in our nature to find fault as well. In James 1:20 we are reminded “Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires.” Hurt emotions always manifest into anger. We feel rejected, shocked, hurt and become angry.
I have taught on this very subjec and yet when I am consumed with own my personal hurt, I too forget. So many moments lost! That is what has happened! We stop calling one another. We do not go to families homes anymore. No one says they are sorry. We become right and everyone else is wrong.
I know that my own stubbornness God has seen and I truly am ashamed. I do not know why families do the things that families do. However, it is not worth arguing about. Sometimes you have to choose peace! God can make me whole. if I hurt he is there to comfort me. If I have a need, he provides. So even when I am hurt by life I can go ask God to comfort me. No matter the issue he will give me guidance.
If you build it they will come! Will they really come? This is the question! I am working hard building a legacy for the future that will not just serve myself but will feed our children and provide for others as well. Starting a new company is hard! Dragging your children along for the ride! Well sometimes I think it’s a bit like herding kittens! What I think versus what they think is important can be a stressful go of it!
Just like that Field of Dreams comes the fear of what if this does not work? What if I did this and no one wants what we are selling? like the brother who is arguing with his sister and brother-in-law about how stupid it was to have bull dozed the corn out to build a baseball field! He could not understand! Yet Mighty Joe kept saying they will pay to see us play! The naysayers cannot see what we are doing!
Building a business is risky. Doing nothing gets you no where either! So if I can going to live today I might as well try! Trying cost nothing but the gain could be service to someone in need! God has a way of giving us things in life that at times we might not fully see! But he does! Our granola company started just this way. When my sister asked “why granola?” I told her that it was from God. God had directed me to this.
In just three months, we have taken the company in a new direction that will allow us to not only sell to our customers but will now allow us to be wholesales into stores staring in Nebraska. Our website is now taking orders with product shipping starting this week.
The commitment to building this has been over whelming with getting located into Nutter’s Bulk & Natural Foods in Scottsbluff, Nebraska as we start producing. Last year we produced 1200 pounds and sold just through Farmers Markets. We have three store locations now that will be selling our product. So it is all about the hard work! Out goal is to promote each store with us doing to foot work, advertising and promotion to share the Granola Box story.
I am learning to trust God! “Depend on God & keep at it because in the Lord God you have a sure thing,” Isiah 26:4 No matter what have faith in where directs you as well.