The Giving In!

Do you ever notice sometimes when we think things are not going the way we want, we then will concede by accepting what ever the circumstance is?  I call this the moment “The Giving In” moments of life.  We do this to adjust to what we are not accomplishing!

An example would be life style change that removes specific things out of your diet.   You expect that you will just become this thin person over night.  You go the scale like it is new toy in the house that you want to play with!  Then there is the moment of defeat!  The Giving In!  The sloughing of the feet as they retreat from the scale who has put your hard work back into perspective!

Recently I have been feeling defeated.   Our defeats can tear us down and make us not want to try!  At times it becomes easier to accept defeat!  As I write this I am dealing with the emotional state of a new business and my expectations.  As well the on going life changes that I have had to make for my health.  We all have challenges and it is more of how we persevere the storms that we bring on ourselves as well as those that we did not see in a health concern.

The success we will have is in trusting God!  When I am in my storms I am not always seeking God.  Satin loves to use our events to keep us from our real need.  God!  As I have said and continue to say!  Satin is a deceiver!  When we are challenged we are to come to God with our needs.  Fasting and praying is something I have never done.  I have had profound answers to prayer in my life. Fasting is something I have never done.  If any of my readers here have, I would love to here from you.  As I write this I am reminded of how Noah must have felt!  He must of looked foolish as he was ridiculed over building this huge boat.  At times! Noah could have given in to the ridicules! Instead he stayed strong in obedience to God!

Ephesians 6:10-18

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, …

A Tribute

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Our daughters are gifts to us!  Children are sent from God.  Not everyone nor do I always remember that they were sent into my life to be life companions and to bring joy along with heart ache.  As I write this, I think of mothers & fathers who don’t get to have their children in their lives.  Just a year ago a little girl had a seizure while driving.  Her car drove off into some sheet grass where it the exhaust started the car on fire.  The young driver never awoke from the smoke that then started the car on fire.  What a tragic loss.

As I write this I think of young girls who are abducted and murdered.  My heart breaks for the Tibbitts family as they deal with the fact that their precious child was murdered.

My heart goes to a scene along side a rushing river as we waited to hear they found my little cousin of 17 years old.  She was found 7 miles away tangled in debris of the river.  Oh how this little girl was so beautiful.  Each of these amazing young women had dreams and so many who loved them.  Each situation different but the loss real!

We struggle to understand why these horrible things happen.  In my home I have a plaque that states the following “Enjoy life because it has an expiration date!”  What a terrible thought and yet it is so true.  We need to grab life and not get caught up on not living.  unfortunately it is easy to put off life based off of goals.

As I think of the young ladies it hurts to think they did not get to marry, they did not get to have children, they did not get to say good-bye to their families and they left way too soon.

One was taken from a fluke issue, one at the hands of another and one to nature of the water.  All still impact and will continue to impact all of us.

our Brittany was beautiful.  A petite little girl with the most amazing spirit who had gone to France with her mother and French Club that summer.  She would have been a senior.

Molly I can only imagine was excited about her education to be a physiologist as she would have been a junior in College.

Liliana was an athlete who spent her last summer as a guard at the local swimming pool.  The little kids loved her.  She would have been a senior in high school.

Taken to soon.   A tribute to each of these amazing young women who are sorely missed today and always

  1. Psalm 116:15 15Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his faithful servants.

    Psalm 23:1-6 1A psalm of David. The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing. 2He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, 3he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. 4Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 5You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. 6Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

    Our hearts still beat, our eyes still fill with tears, our minds still question why?  Our hearts still miss!  May God comfort us in our losses and fill us with the loving memories of those who are missing taken too soon.

My Financial needs & God!

th9ZI8QCA3I am so thankful for the trials that God has been there for.  He has been there every time.  Even when I was trying to do it my way.  God never lets me down.  I have been the problem behind every one of my trials!   Brought on by my own need to control instead of trust.

I have been evaluating this behavior & where it stems from.  When my husband & I got married,  he told me he wanted to manage our finances.  So any error became my cross to bere.  Oh and there was a lot of errors.  As I have gotten older the errors have have lessoned.  However not understanding the finances is just an example of life errors that I have made.

Asking me to manage the family debt has been devastating for me at times.  I was raised with nothing.  I have tried to do good with what God has provided but I am ashamed of what I have not been able to produce for God’s glory. However I forget to see the grace of what God does for us.  I am reminded how foolish of decisions we have made with our money.  Sometimes as a desire to serve our family.  Forgetting God will provide for our children.  I am so thankful that God knows my heart and knows that I want to do right by others through service of employment.  in Matthew 6:31-32 it states the following

Do not worry then, saying, ‘What will we eat ‘ or ‘What will we drink ‘ or ‘What will we wear for clothing ‘ For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.

I cannot make the grass grow, I cannot make the wind move,  I cannot keep my children from their life choices nor can I control anything that God does not have planned for me.

I am thankful that God has provided me with gifts and talents that help produce good for his glory.  I am thankful that he has allowed me to learn from my failings.

“I have learned that mistakes can often be as good a teacher than success!” 

-Jack Welch

All things have a season and if we truly walk by faith then it means trusting God’s will for our lives.  Our finances are important and God will continue to grow me in this area.

I may never have the finest things here on earth!  But what I have is better than all the wealth.  It is the joy of loving God and knowing that he has provided for me and never has forsaken me for a moment!  in Proverbs 10:22

The blessing of the Lord makes one rich, and He adds no sorrow with it.

 

Here is wishing you blessings today of abundance from our Father who loves us!

 

 

 

What if……?

What if instead having people tearing down others, we built one another up?   What if instead of judging one another we worked to better our neighbors?   What if we cared enough to show honor to our leaders?  What if we picked up our Bibles and read it?  What if we set down at the table in the morning and ate together?  What if we spent time with one another at the end of the night as well?  What if we took time to pray and be in communion with God?

All these things are basics what if’s that missing from our communities.  We don’t do business with our local grocery store!  We don’t buy stamps at the post office we pick them up at Wal-Mart!  We don’t use the car dealership in the town we live, we go out-of-town and buy!  We don’t teach our children to show respect and they then grow up to be people who do not show respect!  What if we could change this scenarios?

I think that we can!  Remove people from your influence that are negative.  Make changes to protect your spirit by who you hang with.  Go out of your way to be a neighbor!  When you have an extra serving share!  Instead of tearing down our leaders remember we are called to pray for our leaders.  Take control and read the Bible, blog and stay connected to believers.  Wake up early enough to have breakfast with your family and make dinner time a part of celebrating the day. Thank JESUS for everything!

Jesus gave us the a life to observe as he not only showed us his moral light in what he taught the people he gave his life to give us opportunity to be more.  As I write this I am reminded that I fail daily at being a good neighbor.  I think it is because we need to see past our zip code and look around at what is happening in the small towns we drive through!  I could have more money in my bank account if I did not do business in the small towns that make up the rural landscape.  However I would be part of the problem of not doing business with my neighbors.  Caring enough to go vote on election day & then respecting the outcome.  praying for our businesses, praying for our leaders means I am called to be a good neigbor.

No one should seek their own good, but the good of others.

 

The Quiet Reflection & Grace

We are so accustomed to getting what we want at a touch of a finger with technology! As I write this we are without wifi and wow my family is stressing out because they cannot access their games or be online! The peace of writing I find myself content to reflect what a good day it was!

Work has not been a place of refuge for me. It has been a place that up to now that I have enjoyed going to. However lately not so much. It has been a place of discontent. I am

ready for a vacation or a couple small get a way’sthZDMEMP2V. The past 7 weeks our entire family has been working so hard at our company. We moved into our new Store location at the end of June and wow it has been non stop work. We added a coffee company along with our granola company www.granolabox.biz Our goal with the location is to be a Marketplace for many business to come together under one umbrella and offer services that are not being met within the community. A coffee house was not being met. We offer local roasted coffee from I & L Coffee Roasters and soon we will have a Bakery added to the partners.

To be at home off of my feet just being thankful for this quiet time is just what I needed. I took time this morning to get right with God and pray for restoration as well as seek him in all my matters that only God can help me with. I prayed for my people because my people matter in how they serve! We all have roles we must play in the work place. Understanding the conversations that we have to have are not always easy. As a leader I am called accountability! We are all human and we screw up! I took time to have set down visits with staff who are not one minded with our goals. It was a productive day. I am thankful to the Lord because I felt him today one with me. Reminder: Seek God to be part of your day! Praise and Thanks God for making me more like your son! Truly want to be more like Jesus and less of me!

 

Rabbits & Hat Tricks

” I gave up and gained so much back not in income but in life.  The income will get rebuilt!” On better terms!

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When I was a small child I loved when our school would bring in Magicians to amaze and astound us!  Oh how to be able to pull a rabbit out of a hat!  Or make things disappear.

As I grew and realized a lot of the magic I dreamed of as a small child was not magic at all.  It was just a trick.  Now that is not to say that there is not magical moments in my life!  This past 12 months of recreating my life and the magic all around me has been a true journey.  So much change.  a year ago I was living on the road and living on Mini Butterfinger Candy Bar’s  and Mc Donalds coffee!  I was tired all the time!  I was traveling about 150 miles a day running myself ragged.

As I look at where I am today,  honestly I am still recovering from 2017.  The key word is recovery.  The Magic I have in my life is from being able to hold my husband’s hand at the end of the day.  Drive to work in the morning knowing the road back is 25 miles.  Now that is comfort.  To shop with my 16-year-old for dresses for her Spring Concert!  This is magic!  To see her face light up over being able to get all three dresses!  Magic!

What I have learned is that you must have balance!  Balance is the key to having a good life for half the pain!  Money cannot make my family happy.  It cannot give me back lost time with my children nor my husband.

In the past year the financial loss has been over whelming.  I went from making three figure to a two figure income.  Result is living the good life for half.   I am here to tell you it has not been easy.  Nice meals in restaurants gone!  Wine membership gone!  New car traded off for older car!  Sold off things to make ends meet!  Started a small batch granola company really not easy!  Watched family members look at me like I lost my mind!  Why Granola?  Answer God!  All I know is that it made sense and as we grow I trust God!

Faith &  grace of God is always present.  I am so thankful for his love and never-ending love!  The Magic of life is the joy we get when we allow to let God be all the magic we need!

Three things I am doing now for balance

1.  Bible & prayer time!  I allow this to be removed due to time constraints.  I am scheduling into my day.  Afternoon time as I go home listening to Christian Radio

2.  Health changes cutting a lot of processed food out and eating a better natural diet

3.  Taking back my home from my daughter’s family!  I love my children but our middle daughters family had to be asked to go!  They have been here for three years.  I want the balance of coming into my home and feeling like I live here and that this is my refuge.  It was a tough decision because I love having our grandson right here.  Our faith and our morals do not match with a young couple and middle-aged parents who see the world completely different.  It has caused huge bouts of stress for all of us.

What is important to you will not always be important to others.  But being thankful to change is the only way I got thru the past 12 months.  My faith in God to give me a new perspective paved the path to a better life.  I gave up and gained so much back not in income but in life.  The income will get rebuilt.  I am thankful for what we do have.

 

 

IF YOU BUILD THEY WILL COME!

Trying cost nothing but the gain could be service to someone in need!

If you build it they will come!  Will they really come?  This is the question!  I am working hard building a legacy for the future that will not just serve myself but will feed our children and provide for others as well.  Starting a new company is hard!  Dragging your children along for the ride!  Well sometimes I think it’s a bit like herding kittens!  What I think versus what they think is important can be a stressful go of it!

Just like that Field of Dreams comes the fear of what if this does not work?   What if I did this and no one wants what we are selling?  like the brother who is arguing with his sister and brother-in-law about how stupid it was to have bull dozed the corn out to build a baseball field!  He could not understand!  Yet Mighty Joe kept saying they will pay to see us play!  The naysayers cannot see what we are doing!

Building a business is risky.  Doing nothing gets you no where either!  So if I can going to live today I might as well try!  Trying cost nothing but the gain could be service to someone in need!  God has a way of giving us things in life that at times we might not fully see!  But he does!  Our granola company started just this way.  When my sister asked “why granola?”  I told her that it was from God.  God had directed me to this.

In just three months,  we have taken the company in a new direction that will allow us to not only sell to our customers but will now allow us to be wholesales into stores staring in Nebraska.  Our website is now taking orders with product shipping starting this week.

The commitment to building this has been over whelming with getting located into Nutter’s Bulk & Natural Foods in Scottsbluff, Nebraska as we start producing.  Last year we produced 1200 pounds and sold just through Farmers Markets.  We have three store locations now that will be selling our product.  So it is all about the hard work!  Out goal is to promote each store with us doing to foot work, advertising and promotion to share the Granola Box story.

I am learning to trust God!  “Depend on God & keep at it because in the Lord God you have a sure thing,” Isiah 26:4  No matter what have faith in where directs you as well.

 

 

 

SEEING THRU THE SMOKE

Last week as I last shared our family had a fire in our pellet stove that caused the house to fill with smoke last Sunday evening.  So I spent last Monday cleaning all the walls laundering all the drapes taking all the furnishing out to air out and cleaning all the walls.  I had a company come in to clean to the carpets on Thursday.  The house smelled even worse with the smoke damage in the carpets.

I finally broke down and called the Insurance company.  They are coming out this morning to assess because I am concerned about the smoke damage in the furniture.

Of course I it is week later and I can still smell the smoke.  However my family cannot.  It could be just that I am over whelmed by the whole incident.  You pay for Insurance and then you are fearful of using it.  Our Adjuster said that there is ionizing equipment that can remove all the smoke from our furniture.  My biggest consootcern is our grandson being in our home and being sick from the  in the furniture.

When things happen that cause suffering it is hard to understand.  God has a purpose for what he has planned out for our family.  Personal ownership for bad decisions,  Bryan’s ongoing cancer issues and debt all have been our struggles for since 2014.

God has not forsaken us.  At times I have to remind myself that I am not my own.  God redeems us and protects us.  The fire and smoke could have come in the night with the loss of our family as we slept.  Yet God protected us.  Bryan’s cancer has grown us as a family to see the value of each day.  Career changes has brought me back home and has helped me spend more time with God and family.  Our debt will be resolved.

God has opened doors and closed doors in my life.  He has taken me places I would have never known!  I am so thankful for this.  I have never taken the easy road in life.  It is not my life plan!  I challenge myself!   Even thru all of what has happened God’s grace is sufficient.

Personally we all have dark days.  Do not be deceived or manipulated to stay in the dark. PSALM 23:4 reminds us ” Even though I walk through the darkest valley,  I will fear no evil for you are with me.   PSALM 23:4

I own my hardships.  God knows my heart and he knows my failings.  He knows my nature.  In tough times I have had to lean on him and not on me.  I really stink at this.  As I look back on things I decided without God!  I have suffered!

As I close this blog today I am inspired to be excited for this day!  Truly blessed.house_fire_s1

 

 

HARVESTING EVEN IN THE WINTER

Recently I have had to realize that shame is God’s way of humbling our hearts.  We bring shame upon ourselves.   It becomes apparent that in life it becomes hurt that can keep us from our goals of being closer to God.

As I grow in my life toward the woman God wants me to be, I have realized that my mistakes become shame.  I read a note card that gave good life advice.  it said do not go to bed angry, show up and stay late and think before you speak!  Really good advise.  We sometimes need to remind ourselves that sometimes what we start is not going to turn out just like we expected.  However it might turn out better!

I have set some huge goals this year for my life.  I look to the small victories that God will send me as I work toward these goals.  However my goals mean nothing if they do not grow me toward God.  Recently I have been humbled by new people who God has placed in my life.  He sets our feet toward new directions!  He asures me that I will be doing his work.  It might be a co-worker,  A family member, or a stranger that is placed in my life for his glory.  I have learned to be thankful for all.

Being humble is when you realize what you have to say is not necessary!  You become quiet and more willing to let others speak.  Being humbled by what happens to me instead of torn down by circumstances.  Learning to let go of strife and being ok with a new road.  These are the things of growth!

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The QUIET BEGINING

“As I write this, it is apparent to me that I am different!  Different than I used to be. “

As I write this, it is apparent to me that I am different!  Different than I used to be. Why?  Well it happened almost without my realization.  All of the sudden when I would get in my car I did not want to listen to music.  How I took time to think of others feelings more so than my opinion.  All of the sudden I was wanting to read more and seek the scriptures to get a better understanding of what I needed for my life.

My staff laugh because they know I am walking into the building just as Franklin Graham comes on the radio right after Adrian Rogers.  Why would they know this? Because I listen to Pastor Adrian Rogers everyday as I drive to work.  I would love to listen to Franklin as well but I cannot.  I have shared with all my team that I feed my morning drive with Pastor Adrian so when I am walking into the building I am equipped with the message and I try to pray to the Lord to allow me be a blessing to him as I conduct myself and how I treat my team!

The high standard of what I want my people to see in me is important.  I need to be prepared to greet them with a solid mind and a Christ Centered behavior!  I love it when I am able to wake early and read something amazing here on WordPress that inspires my heart.  However being a morning person is not a NATURAL part of who I am.  I like my sleep!  When I do not wake early I miss on my time with the Lord.  Oh I miss this!

I love spending time with God.  As I grow in my walk this time is very important to me.  I am hungry for learning.  He truly restores me and help me meet the day.  I love to close the door on my office and read my New Testament at work as well.  If we want a time for God we have to block time out.  I feel God working in me.  I am growing because I am hungry for God.  I am so thankful for this.  Here is hoping that you can set time aside to be thankful to God and to spend time praising everyday!