Oh how sin creates such sorrow.  This past has been filled with so much sorrow.  Loss of loved ones, living and gone.  The living lost hurts the most!  Hurt relationships or worst lost relationships.

This sorrow does have hope thru God’s restoration.  God heals our brokeness.  Getting thru the brokeness sometimes is the hardest.  We need to celebrate our victories and those we love.  To be strong and not give up when Satin is spinning his lies.  When I look at the sorrow that has been spun in my life, out of not giving God my life!   I am ashamed!   God is my father whom will chasten my life and behavior because I need to be held accountable out of love.  Satin will whisper lies and get me to question my decisions.

This year I have seen many people who I know God removed. These people did not truly care about me.  They used me to get where they are.  Now I want my readers to know I am thankful that God placed me in these folks lives.  His reasoning for me to serve others is never a concern of mine.  I allow God to work thru me to serve others.  I trust God to help others.  I just really have never trusted my God to take care of all of me.

As I drove to work this morning, I was listening to Pastor Adrian Rogers talking about how we are called to give 1 tenth of our earning to the Lord.  We are do this because God provides everything for us.  My sorrow is over my sin of not giving to the Lord!  As Pastor spoke of the following passage.  I cried as I drove to work.  Primarily because I have sinned when it comes to giving to God and to being a good steward of what God has provided.  I prayed and cried out my heart to the Lord as I realized how I have not understood what I am to do in regards to what God has asked me to do.

Ten percent of my wage to God seems hard to reach when things are tough.  However I am reminded what Jesus did for me.  He did not hold back he took that cross for me.  A sinner!  God knows my heart and I will get there where I can commit to God what he is worthy of.  I tend to be very generous to those in need and people whom God has appointed me as a leader.  We are to confess with our mouth our sin.  I shared my sin with God and asked him to forgive me.  In doing this I also seek ways to serve the Lord.  This Blog is one way I can give.  I can be a testament of what God has done for me.  I can also humble myself to those who read my blog and know that I am a work in progress!

Thank you Jesus for being my savior and for allowing me the words to help others who may be struggling with their own sorrow.  God I know I can do better and ask you to help me do better.  In Jesus name AMEN-


“Honor the Lord with thy substance, and with the first fruits of all thine increase; So shall thy barns be filled with plenty, and thy presses shall burst out with new wine.” Proverbs 3:9-10


I find myself thinking this a lot. What to do?  What to do now?  What to do tomorrow?  What to do when this fails?  What to do when we don’t have anything left to sell?  What to do when?  These are all tough What to do’s to deal with.

When I become pitted against my own ideas and start giving into this type of thinking I remind myself of the following!  I can fail!  I can always do something different!  I can choose to let tomorrow take care of itself!  I can change things because I have the power to do so!

Sometimes we need to remember our past accomplishments.  Remember that you to have defeated the dragon of doubt.  Doubt is not of God it is of the Evil one.

When things do not work out and we have to try something different we forgot that we are not alone.  I am convicted as I write this because I find this to be so true of me.   I give up sometimes on me.  I have been dieting with my youngest daughter and she is making great progress.  I am struggling.  this always makes me feel like a failure.

But when I take a step back and look at how I feel even though the scale is not moving as fast as I want it to.  I have to remind myself I am 53 years old.   I am not 15!  The goal is to have fun while I watch my daughter find love in exercise!  This is a victory for me to see her want to go to the gym.  She is finding her inner person and having fun doing so.

What to do today ?  I choose to pray and be thankful for the moments when I do not have the answers!   I have to trust in God to pull me thru just as he has done always!

Grab your what to do attitude today and pray!  Happy 4th of July to our Great Country and to you!

The Spin

It seems as if I have been in a Spin!  I have been so busy with Granola Box my new company that I have just been spinning.  Tonight I took time to go work out with my daughter.  My sister has a 24 hour gym and Kelsey had wanted to look into membership.

Kelsey sent her a message and Deanna told her we could come anytime at no cost.  What a kind thing to do for us!   We tried a spin class that Kelsey did not like.  So we then  lifted free weights and played with the medicine balls.  We both felt a bit out of place.

As we go this will become more comfortable.   But it was a bit uncomfortable tonight.  Which brings me back to things that create spins in our lives.  Change creates spins in our lives.  Some people love the spin of new.  Some do not!

I tend to not like change and when it happens I then deal with the spin of it.  I tend to try to plan of the spins so when they come I can be prepared for any outcome.

I am in the spin of my life right now with starting a new career for my daughters to eventually run.  a Marketing company and studying to be a real estate agent.  Taking back my life on my terms came down to if I have to be spinning plates.  I am going to be spinning my own plates!   I am so glad that I know that I can do what ever I put my mind too.  Don’t ever not believe that what you want is not attainable!  Go for it!  The spin is going to happen anyway so why not really jump in and do what you dream about!

Life is short!  Don’t let others tell you NO you CAN NOT!  Show them YES YOU CAN!

Be brave and go for the dream!  Who knows you might find new joy and a new chapter of YOU!