LIFES BROKEN MOMENTS

“I know that my own stubbornness God has seen and I am truly ashamed.”

Some of the toughest times in my life have come out of my own poor decisions.  I am a sinner trying to be more like Jesus in how he lived is not always easy!   I loose my way.  We naturally look back and remember hurt moments in our lives.  We even become bitter over things.  I have got to admit I know all about bitterness.

I try hard not to think of these moments pexels-photo-267559.jpegwhere those whom we love the most have hurt us.  It is in our nature to find fault as well.  In James 1:20 we are reminded “Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires.”  Hurt emotions always manifest into anger.  We feel rejected,  shocked, hurt and become angry.

I have taught on this very subjec and yet when I am consumed with own my personal hurt, I too forget.  So many moments lost!  That is what has happened!  We stop calling one another.  We do not go to families homes anymore.  No one says they are sorry.  We become right and everyone else is wrong.

I know that my own stubbornness God has seen and I truly am ashamed.  I do not know why families do the things that families do.  However,  it is not worth arguing about.  Sometimes you have to choose peace!  God can make me whole.  if I hurt he is there to comfort me.  If I have a need, he provides.  So even when I am hurt by life I can go ask God to comfort me.  No matter the issue he will give me guidance.

IF YOU BUILD THEY WILL COME!

Trying cost nothing but the gain could be service to someone in need!

If you build it they will come!  Will they really come?  This is the question!  I am working hard building a legacy for the future that will not just serve myself but will feed our children and provide for others as well.  Starting a new company is hard!  Dragging your children along for the ride!  Well sometimes I think it’s a bit like herding kittens!  What I think versus what they think is important can be a stressful go of it!

Just like that Field of Dreams comes the fear of what if this does not work?   What if I did this and no one wants what we are selling?  like the brother who is arguing with his sister and brother-in-law about how stupid it was to have bull dozed the corn out to build a baseball field!  He could not understand!  Yet Mighty Joe kept saying they will pay to see us play!  The naysayers cannot see what we are doing!

Building a business is risky.  Doing nothing gets you no where either!  So if I can going to live today I might as well try!  Trying cost nothing but the gain could be service to someone in need!  God has a way of giving us things in life that at times we might not fully see!  But he does!  Our granola company started just this way.  When my sister asked “why granola?”  I told her that it was from God.  God had directed me to this.

In just three months,  we have taken the company in a new direction that will allow us to not only sell to our customers but will now allow us to be wholesales into stores staring in Nebraska.  Our website is now taking orders with product shipping starting this week.

The commitment to building this has been over whelming with getting located into Nutter’s Bulk & Natural Foods in Scottsbluff, Nebraska as we start producing.  Last year we produced 1200 pounds and sold just through Farmers Markets.  We have three store locations now that will be selling our product.  So it is all about the hard work!  Out goal is to promote each store with us doing to foot work, advertising and promotion to share the Granola Box story.

I am learning to trust God!  “Depend on God & keep at it because in the Lord God you have a sure thing,” Isiah 26:4  No matter what have faith in where directs you as well.

 

 

 

SEEING THRU THE SMOKE

Last week as I last shared our family had a fire in our pellet stove that caused the house to fill with smoke last Sunday evening.  So I spent last Monday cleaning all the walls laundering all the drapes taking all the furnishing out to air out and cleaning all the walls.  I had a company come in to clean to the carpets on Thursday.  The house smelled even worse with the smoke damage in the carpets.

I finally broke down and called the Insurance company.  They are coming out this morning to assess because I am concerned about the smoke damage in the furniture.

Of course I it is week later and I can still smell the smoke.  However my family cannot.  It could be just that I am over whelmed by the whole incident.  You pay for Insurance and then you are fearful of using it.  Our Adjuster said that there is ionizing equipment that can remove all the smoke from our furniture.  My biggest consootcern is our grandson being in our home and being sick from the  in the furniture.

When things happen that cause suffering it is hard to understand.  God has a purpose for what he has planned out for our family.  Personal ownership for bad decisions,  Bryan’s ongoing cancer issues and debt all have been our struggles for since 2014.

God has not forsaken us.  At times I have to remind myself that I am not my own.  God redeems us and protects us.  The fire and smoke could have come in the night with the loss of our family as we slept.  Yet God protected us.  Bryan’s cancer has grown us as a family to see the value of each day.  Career changes has brought me back home and has helped me spend more time with God and family.  Our debt will be resolved.

God has opened doors and closed doors in my life.  He has taken me places I would have never known!  I am so thankful for this.  I have never taken the easy road in life.  It is not my life plan!  I challenge myself!   Even thru all of what has happened God’s grace is sufficient.

Personally we all have dark days.  Do not be deceived or manipulated to stay in the dark. PSALM 23:4 reminds us ” Even though I walk through the darkest valley,  I will fear no evil for you are with me.   PSALM 23:4

I own my hardships.  God knows my heart and he knows my failings.  He knows my nature.  In tough times I have had to lean on him and not on me.  I really stink at this.  As I look back on things I decided without God!  I have suffered!

As I close this blog today I am inspired to be excited for this day!  Truly blessed.house_fire_s1

 

 

CLEARING THE AIR

We have a wood pellet stove in our home.  We have enjoyed this stove.  The stove really has reduced our fuel bills.  Something went wrong last night and my daughter came running into my Master that is in the back of the house to tell me the stove was on fire.  I went out to see what was going on to find the door of the stove was open and the house filled with heavy white soot smoke.  we opened the windows to clear the smoke.

Well this morning the smoke is just as heavy.  I called my employer to let them know I will be working from home on cleaning the house.  Just checked website on smoke damage.  I have decided on a combination of a mild detergent with baking soda and vinegar.  well it is has not removed the smell.  I covered the furniture in baking soda and damped it with vinigar. it seemed to work on the furniture.  However the walls and ceilings still smell of smoke.  More than half of the house was effected.  The throw rugs in the livingroom I contacted a professional carpet care company who will come on Thursday and shampoo.  All the drapes, blinds and throw pillows were taken out and laundered.  All the wall hangings are on the patio with all the baskets that needed cleaned with mild soap and vinigar.  I am so thankful that I am cleaning furnishings and that we did not die from smoke inhalation or worse in a full house fire!

God’s grace and love once again has prevailed.  Even though it cost me a day of work we still have time to thank the Lord for this day and to rejoice in his glory.

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HARVESTING EVEN IN THE WINTER

Recently I have had to realize that shame is God’s way of humbling our hearts.  We bring shame upon ourselves.   It becomes apparent that in life it becomes hurt that can keep us from our goals of being closer to God.

As I grow in my life toward the woman God wants me to be, I have realized that my mistakes become shame.  I read a note card that gave good life advice.  it said do not go to bed angry, show up and stay late and think before you speak!  Really good advise.  We sometimes need to remind ourselves that sometimes what we start is not going to turn out just like we expected.  However it might turn out better!

I have set some huge goals this year for my life.  I look to the small victories that God will send me as I work toward these goals.  However my goals mean nothing if they do not grow me toward God.  Recently I have been humbled by new people who God has placed in my life.  He sets our feet toward new directions!  He asures me that I will be doing his work.  It might be a co-worker,  A family member, or a stranger that is placed in my life for his glory.  I have learned to be thankful for all.

Being humble is when you realize what you have to say is not necessary!  You become quiet and more willing to let others speak.  Being humbled by what happens to me instead of torn down by circumstances.  Learning to let go of strife and being ok with a new road.  These are the things of growth!

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The QUIET BEGINING

“As I write this, it is apparent to me that I am different!  Different than I used to be. “

As I write this, it is apparent to me that I am different!  Different than I used to be. Why?  Well it happened almost without my realization.  All of the sudden when I would get in my car I did not want to listen to music.  How I took time to think of others feelings more so than my opinion.  All of the sudden I was wanting to read more and seek the scriptures to get a better understanding of what I needed for my life.

My staff laugh because they know I am walking into the building just as Franklin Graham comes on the radio right after Adrian Rogers.  Why would they know this? Because I listen to Pastor Adrian Rogers everyday as I drive to work.  I would love to listen to Franklin as well but I cannot.  I have shared with all my team that I feed my morning drive with Pastor Adrian so when I am walking into the building I am equipped with the message and I try to pray to the Lord to allow me be a blessing to him as I conduct myself and how I treat my team!

The high standard of what I want my people to see in me is important.  I need to be prepared to greet them with a solid mind and a Christ Centered behavior!  I love it when I am able to wake early and read something amazing here on WordPress that inspires my heart.  However being a morning person is not a NATURAL part of who I am.  I like my sleep!  When I do not wake early I miss on my time with the Lord.  Oh I miss this!

I love spending time with God.  As I grow in my walk this time is very important to me.  I am hungry for learning.  He truly restores me and help me meet the day.  I love to close the door on my office and read my New Testament at work as well.  If we want a time for God we have to block time out.  I feel God working in me.  I am growing because I am hungry for God.  I am so thankful for this.  Here is hoping that you can set time aside to be thankful to God and to spend time praising everyday!

EMBRACING CHANGE

All though life changes our outer being the inner being still feels young without boundaries. It is only when I am playing with my children I realize that the shell is getting older.

Change is inevitable with every year our lives change.  This year we saw our daughter marry and have her first-born.  I remember being deeply in love with my husband and the night he proposed and yet this was 34 years ago.  Oh how I have changed!  When I look in the mirror I can still see that girl who said yes!  All though life changes our outer being the inner being still feels young without boundaries.  It is only when I am playing with my children I realize that the shell is getting older.

Age is not always a welcome visitor.  Vanity of what and who we perceive who we are changes with each passing year.  I guess that is why we need to focus on who we are today.  Today I am a better person because I have accepted I cannot do this life without Christ.  This was the best change I made.  I will forever be thankful for accepting Jesus as my savior and my sister-in-law and best friend Lorie who was there who prayed with me as I accepted Jesus.  Embracing this change has been a lot like to evolution of me going from a young woman to the older woman I am today.

When we decide to accept and be thankful for what God has done in our lives it becomes really fun to see where that change will take me.  I am set apart in the body of Christ.  But being set aside does not mean that the challenges and changes I will embrace will always be fully understood at the time of these changes.  We have to open our hearts up to what God has in store.  So Embrace change today

 

A BIT ABOUT ME-

A few things my readers my not know about me as I love food! When I travel I always research out the best places to try. I live in the State of Nebraska where we are proud of corn fed beef!

I awoke to the cell going of this morning. Haylie our middle daughter was letting me know that she was going to stay in town a bit and catch up with an old friend who is visiting and that she would need me to watch our grandson Jayson. I am not admitting it to her, but I never mind the time I have with our little man. The plan was to get out of bed and clean the house and spend time in fellowship. I still have been doing this, I feel like I took a trip the UK this morning, I was researching the category of FOOD on WordPress.com

A few things my readers my not know about me as I love food! When I travel I always research out the best places to try. I live in the State of Nebraska where we are proud of corn-fed beef! However being a survivor of a heart attack I have worked hard to cut back on this and eat more fish and poultry.

I actually love the challenges of trying new foods. I am a cook book fanatic and a Pinterest freak! I adore both the book in my hand and the online beauty of the recipes. I am very interested in how to eat for health. However giving up all goodies is a tough thing too. If you have been reading my blog I set four goals for 2018 in my post 2018 FOUR SET- GO!  One of the 4 set goals was to cut refined sugars out of my diet and to get healthier in 2018.    2015-2017 was not good years for us personally. We lost family members and my husband was diagnosed with cancer.  SO I thru myself into work! 

As well as trying to control life instead of relying on God. My life has not been that of tranquility. But I am not looking back now!  Enough! 2018 is all about going forward and seeing positive things happening!

the four goals I set are huge goals. I am not the type of person who sets goals and thinks I have arrived. It is about gaining success in an areas I am focusing. I think 4 areas is enough. What makes me happy is writing this blog. I am a twin and I must say y sister is the bomb. Cindy is a brilliant woman who is truly my rock! I can always rely on her to tell me just what she thinks! No holding back! Another bit about me. I am short! 64 inches tall is not tall! So being fat does not look good at a short woman! Another reason to go to the gym. Another reason to walk a lot in my job. Another reason to eat fish!

As I write this blog the smell of last nights cabbage burgers are still in the air. These are a treat for my family. Home made bread filled with cabbage, onions and good Nebraska corn-fed beef burger blended together to make pockets of pure yum!   I am that woman who can taste something and without a recipe recreate it.  I love to adapt my favorite cakes into granola’s that we then sell thru our granola company. 

Today I am working on German Chocolate Cake Granola.  the goal is to make it taste great with no refined sugars.  We use a lot of coconut sugars and natural stevia in our blends I do not like fake sugars.  We use real honey and maple as well along with natural sweetness of fruit.  I will post later how this one turns out.

Best selling right now is our Carrot Cake granola. We ship a ton of this!

Well enough for now!  I will be posting later on the success of this new granola.

BEING BRAVE

I was thinking of all the brave people who triumph over great obstacles.  David’s own people could not believe that he would defeat the Giant Goliath and help his people take back their land.  And yet he did!  His own brothers begged him to not go thru with this.

Yet David had prayed and was encouraged and sure of his decision.  No one believed in David!  Yet he was sure of his decision. He was brave against all obstacles. He was small, He was a Sheppard Boy,  He was small, He was not a warrior, He was laughed at,  He was told that he would die!  Yet Goliath mocked him from a far, He even proclaimed to be God!  He did not believe this little guy would knock him down and that the sword you demanded his servant to get would be the same sword David would use to take off his head with!  David was victorious because he knew that God was with him.  He knew that he would destroy the giant and that he would take back his land.

Being brave did not just happen.  It was his faith!  David knew that God would deliver him!  In my life I have had brave moments!  However never as brave as what God called David to do!  He was in line with what God called him to do!  d58f4ce1f2fbd3254bfa958ec9e2bb42

No matter our need for bravery God will be with us!  Find comfort in knowing that God has a plan for your life!

THE TRY OF IT ALL

I believe that we all need someone in our corner. Who will be strong enough to tell us that we are wrong! Strong enough to fire us when it is necessary. Strong enough to be there from a distance asking them to consider a different approach.

Have you ever tried to help another and they just don’t see it! They act like they are on the same page only to not care about what you are trying to do! I have been working with a young man who is truly not helping himself. As an employer I want to retain employees by getting them on board with our goals.

Well just like that employee God gives us children as well. I can recall several conversations with my children about what they were doing or proposing that I did not agree with. So I would try to influence their thinking by asking them to consider my opinions. However that was never going to work!   Because it would mean they would have to change their opinion. It is all about trying that becomes more of a compromise that will help both of us. A give and take!

Both scenarios are about two young people.  My insight is from life!   They have not lived to see failings.  They both are still happy to rely on their families to get their needs met.  The young man is not willing to change his conduct that will eventually lose him his employment.  The child who thinks she is correct will find out she is not once she is on her own struggling with the reality of her life.

We can only try to get others to see the reasons why we still try!  I believe that we all need someone in our corner.  Who will be strong enough to tell us that we are wrong!  Strong enough to fire us when it is necessary.  Strong enough to be there from a distance asking them to consider a different approach.

Look at your life relationships and see if you see who has been the brave ones in your life!  Who said “No you are wrong!”  the Bible teaches that God cares for us.  He will hold us accountable.  “In an outburst of anger I turned my back on you but only for a moment.  It’s with lasting love that I am tenderly caring for you.”  Isaiah 54:8

As the above scripture reminds,  we must know that he God has an opinion of our choices and he will be stead fast in his love to bring us back from our own errors.


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