Life is not certain! Some people can touch mud and turn it into gold. Others will just see the mud and not realize the gold that the mud held the gold! It is the unknowns that keep a lot of us in bondage to not getting what we want out of life! I have always strived for excellence! I have been successful! However the thing that drives me crazy is the variables that create one life and how another close variable is so different.
If you have followed my blog you know that I am a twin! My sister is my hero! I wish I could say I am hers. Cindy was born five minutes before me! I always tease her that I was the one pushing her into life. Cindy has always been the older wiser sister!
Cindy’s in the rental business of homes. I am in the business of trying to grow a business while I work a forty plus hour job that pays me well but not great! I drive old, she drives new, She is thin, I am fat. I get so frustrated trying to understand what I don’t get about what made our lives so different. And it comes down to the following
I choose a life with my best friend and took on different role in life. I have pushed hard to make the best wage possible to take care of our family. A lot of times not without respect or consideration from those around me. However God kept me standing in my marriage even when I quit. God would remind me of my committment. I don’t understand what God has a planned for me. Yet he knows what is best! he has held me together, has never let me down, has been there for every tear and every life celebration! He has protected me from everything! At times feel so little against the success I don’t feel I have! Yet God stands with me even when I do not feel I am enough.
All the unknowns that are never seen because he has angels watching over me inner ceding for me for his will not mine. Thank You Lord for being here no matter what! I am so thankful for your grace! Amen