My brother Scotty loves corn dogs! When we go to town we always end up at Scotty’s Drive Inn and buy 2 corn dogs and always asked for Mustard & Ketchup. When Scotty gets that bag it is on. He has a plan! He has the mustard packet ripped then he goes for the ketchup! Let me just say here that this is not car food! Scotty does not talk! He just eats!
Just like Scotty I know what I like too! As we all do! When I was pregnant with both girls I craved french fries and chicken gravy from a specific restaurant. I was reminded today of the french fries in a conversation with my husband. We at times in life accept things that become part of our habits. I was raised in tough times and Dad could not afford to take us to the doctors. So I am not good at taking care of myself. In the past years I have become more lethargic and wiped out a lot. I ignore it and keep pushing myself.
I have been home since Friday night sick with what I thought at first was a cold. Each day I have gotten worse. I went to see the doctor today and she read through some lab work that I had done 14 months earlier. I was not fully aware of what those numbers meant. I am now awaiting new lab results and a phone consultation tomorrow after the tests come back. God has granted me more time here to know the true love of my husband, to be a mother, to be a daughter to parents who I really never did really know.
The people who I could have never imagined that would be part of my story! Blessings abound me! I have no idea what is ahead of me. I only know that God has been here through it all.
I am hoping I am headed toward recovery. To see each of our children grow up and be the women I hope they will be. I think my underlying health issues have a lot to do with my emotional state. I want to get well and actually not be exhausted all the time.
It is easy for me to put others ahead of me. This is good. Even when I am being e-rational about taking care of me I have tried to be the best person I could be in service of others.
Awareness of what is given leaves me thankful what God has given me. He knows my person! He knows my behavior and he knows my hour. I worry not about where I will go. I know that even though I am not perfect. Jesus is my savior. He comforts me and he is with me.